I’ve taken more and more to logging my mental state at times where I feel something significant (good or bad) has happened and yesterday was one of those days. It’s was a very weird and quite disturbing day. I woke up in the morning not in a great mood, having been woken up the night… Continue reading Being consumed by dark clouds
Tag: selfharm
A visit from an unwanted friend
Okay yes I promised you tales of Lisbon and what not but life does not always go according to plan, I actually have something that I think is more important to talk about. You may of seen throughout this blog that I sometimes acknowledge just how far I have come and I know that at… Continue reading A visit from an unwanted friend
My last job, a breakdown
I wanted to get down at some point on this trip what I think went wrong with my at least my last permanent positions and how I have begun to feel about it. The last two permanent jobs I have had have been quite destructive at times for me, mostly because I get so involved… Continue reading My last job, a breakdown
Dealing with frustration
I have decided to explain to you what it’s like sometimes in my head. I used to think I have some sort of mental imbalance, whenever I have felt frustrated during my teenage years I have usually turned that frustration in on myself, this is why I said that frustration is one of the worst… Continue reading Dealing with frustration
I’m only hurting myself
In a previous post I mentioned something that I am not proud of but have to own up to it. This is going to sound a bit like an alcoholics anonymous meeting but it feels like the only way; Hi my name is Chris and I cause myself harm. Whenever you mention self harm to… Continue reading I’m only hurting myself